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3 Poems by Kailey Tedesco

dream locket / primary tokophobia


i will clamshell for you—again, my body plays god

without me. a rainbow, the fractures of you


etch monogram through my nervous system—

veins tangled in veins, all my charms


palpitate & chainlink. your hair weaves up

into my esophagus & out through the hand-pies—


at birth, my mother recalled my body werewolf-ed

with lanugo. i imagine yours will be too.


my hearts each burn at night & scab

my organs stiller—in false-awe i wonder


what it is that makes the feast taste

of gold coins, the water all un-wined.


soon these new colors will pour invisible

from me, my orifices alight with blossoming


cranium & shoulder. which of your psychic

wounds will shine the brightest in the photograph?


for a moment i’m the seance & you’re the spirit

tipping my abdomen over, swelling my cells


& capillaries. a blood-pour, i’ll collect

what i can of you into my prettiest jar,


wear it all around my neck.


 

tucked away / enmeshment


dissociated, you storm me. i found myself


unable to listen to father, went coatless


by the fog-pond & paper-boated past my dearest


ghost. you make me frozen-


charlotte, a glass-nude lost


among miniatures. combing your willow-hair,


i waver. you arm me only in porcelain, a stronghold,


a hoop-demon. faux-beholden, i kiss the men


long before i am ready. we’re playing house


& we’re playing dolls & it is all only a game.


everything is lullabied & plush-fuzzed


even the dress-up trunk full of facelessness


i can try on & on, all my clothes


a costume of innocence, of your murder


eating my mind. lungless-ness beckons


to me. i pretend suffocate, suffer no food


from the weeping oven, unfed & unferal.


the good nanny saves me in this version alone.


in this version i’m older than i should be, un-sick.


i forget mother. well-martyred,


i’ll marry the man who makes me feel


like playing least.


 


 

Kailey Tedesco is the author of three full-length collections of poetry. She is a senior editor for Luna Luna Magazine, and she teaches an ongoing course on the witch in literature at Moravian College. You can find her work featured in Fairy Tale Review, Conduit, The Journal, and more. For further information, please visit kaileytedesco.com.


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